'THE LADY IN BLUE"

I am back......

My Faith is something that most people who know me realize that it has been a very important part of my Journey!  But for it I would not be who I am.........

and to be honest I have had a huge problem trying to decide how to or even if I should tell you all about this.......but I promised to be honest and not hold back!  


So it continues............. 

For as long as I can remember The Lady in Blue was a constant figure in the far left corner of our bedroom. I only have a slight memory of  when she first appeared, it had to be around the age of 8 or 9 years old but she was always just sitting there in the little chair next to the window......... 

She watched over me only speaking at certain points, unlike the "See Through People"!

My First memory of The Lady in Blue is one that will always bring a smile to my face.....

It was on October 31, 1968 or 1969, Halloween day.  At that time I didn't understand why this date, except that it was the day I felt that childlike JOY of getting so much candy....... sigh.....I felt rich!
  
Truthfully I still don't know why she chose that date...........

(You see at that time, we kids were allowed to go Halloweening by walking as far as our little legs allowed us to go, as long as we were with other children it was all good.  I guess the world was different in so many ways then, being driven to and from houses just didn't happen.)  

The evening of October 31, was not like every other night, after hours of walking and then going through our candy, I got ready to go to bed and knowing that The See Through People would soon be visiting!  But this night would be different.......having fallen asleep right away, I remember being awaken with the need to go pee!  With partially closed eyes,  I got up out of my bed and went to the bathroom and after, as I climbed into bed I heard this humming, it was soft and beautiful, coming from the far corner of the room. 
  
Thinking about it I can actually see her long brown hair falling down her sides, her large dark gentle eyes always looking at me with such love, her long soft baby blue dress, with a high slim neck , cinch at the waist by a dark blue cord softly falling in folds of the material right down to her dainty little feet crossed and tucked properly under the chair, surrounded in a soft glowing illuminating light, humming with a gentle smile on her lips..............
When our eyes met she stopped humming and I heard her words as if she was standing right next to me!

.......she said.......

I have been sent to you by someone who loves you very much, the maker of all that is good!  I am here now child,  and I will be here for as long as you need me....now sleep! I will never forget those words for they were said to me many many night to come, always bringing with them comfort and  peace.
   
Next morning I ran to my grannies house and told her all about my visitor.  Well granny just sat there looking at me, her lower lip trembling then she took me in her arms and said that her prayers had been answered,  she then informed me that for the past year she had been asking for some help to protect me, knowing that my journey in life would be at times difficult. Also she new where there is good there has to be evil and danger and because The Lady was here I would now be safe!

In the years that followed she would be there to tell me not to be afraid to be strong and to believe.
That she was with me and all I had to do is ask for help and she would make it easier!  

And she did..........many times to come.........

She has been there almost everyday of my early life first in the bedroom I shared with my sister and after the age of 12 standing next to the window with its sage green layered curtains in the room that I would call my own in my parents house then in my own home my husband and I built!
  
But in the last  6 years after having moved to our cottage, I have only seen her here several times........

The reason I feel is simple, here among the untouched vast beauty that Mother Nature has surrounded me with, the silent symphony that allows my mind to stop, and the life force that emanates from the lake sharing with me a peacefulness that stills my soul.  "I have arrived and I am finally home"!

Her presence change the course of my life............

"THE HAT"

The last few weeks have been so busy, with doing the TV show and the Wharf Rat Rally, it seemed like I did not have a moment to breath let alone sit long enough to write.....What an adventure it has been!!!!  One that I will share with all of you as soon as I am able................

I am sooo Grateful!

Thank you my God!!!

Although a little tired but happy to being finally back, I have to tell you all the truth I really missed sitting down to write and allowing myself to remembering the past......sigh....

Its so amazing to me when I think of how much FEAR I had to even begin this journey in the first place and yet here I am, getting ready to write my fifth post on my blog...
I hear my GRANNY TRACY'S loving gentle voice echoing in my mind as it always seemed to do when that four letter word came through and stirred up doubt in my life! (and there were many)

she would say:

 "KELLEY, WHEN YOU FEEL THAT FEAR CREEPING IN, TAKE A DEEP BREATH PULL UP YOUR PANTS AND REMEMBER ITS EVIL THAT IS TRYING TO STOP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOUR SOUL KNOWS IT SHOULD DO......................
SO LOOK IT STRAIGHT IN THE EYE AND JUST CLIMB OVER IT!'' 

 so here I go......

He walked with shuffling feet, a tall slim lanky man, slightly bent at the waist with the burden of 78 years of a full life lived on his shoulders.  I do not know what he did for a living, or what adventures he had experienced only that he was the one an only person I had ever come across, that had been born on the same day as I............
November 28, was my birthday and so it was for him..........
My neighbor across the street,  who walked every day, past my house.  If by chance I would be outside, he would wave and I would walk with him for a while. He always told me I was special because we had the same birthday and that I was a little light.  
He was a soft spoken man with a twinkle in his eyes and always a story to tell.  But what was really important to me now as I look back was that he spoke of his wife who had died many years prior and when he would, oh how I would feel this deep sadness come over him.......He'd  say she had gone home and hopefully he would be going soon so he could be with her........
he would put his finger to his lips and whisper shhhhhh its only for our ears and with a wink he would turn the corner to his driveway and I would turn to mine..............  
Sadly time continued to pass and as sure as the sun rose he would take his walk and I began to see a very dark HAT LIKE shape about a couple of feet on top of his head.  He never acted different except for talking less on our walks................. 
This confused and sadden me, so I went to ask Granny Tracy what it was? She was as confused as I was, this Hat was something she had never experienced so she told me to pray and ask to be made aware.  In her words  "You Ask and it Shall be Answered", and that's exactly what I did, that night I closed my eyes and asked for an answer to this mystery of "THE HAT"

About several weeks later I had a dream.......In it was Alcide (the old man) and a glowing lady that was telling him that it was not his time yet........as much as he may be ready, he had to stay a lot longer!  I saw him leave in my dream and the lady then seem to see me and then said "Little one You Can See The Darkness above his head, the closer it gets to the head the sooner he will be going Home".  
Next morning I went to Granny Tracy's house and told her what I had dreamt and she said that "THE HAT" was the way I could tell when someone were going to die.  And The Lady would be there to help me if I asked!  She was special and full of white light.  Anything she told me would always be the truth. 
And boy was my Granny right.................................

For many years I walked with Alcide, up an down his driveway!  And in those years THE HAT began to come down closer and closer to his head! I told him and he would say "I know, soon real soon I hope" then he would put his finger to his mouth and say Shhhhhh.  
In the years that followed I told my Granny many times what I saw with Alcide and she would say "It is not in our hands to change what is to come" and pat my head.   But there came a time when Alcide didn't walk as often, and I grew up.  But the feeling never changed, and as the year past and I would see him, his HAT got closer and closer to his head.......

Two weeks after my last walk with Alcide, I dreamt that he had come to me to tell me goodbye.  He thanked me for walking with him and he told me to never forget that I was a special light.....

Almost 10 years from the time I saw The Lady in my dreams, on July 20, 1978 at the age of 89 he decided he had waited long enough and walked for the last time behind his home into the ocean and went finally home.  


The Sadness I felt when I learned of his fate was so deep, yet I was old enough to understand that he was finally where he had always wanted to be. HOME

I can't begin to tell you how much I detested the ability to see that dam HAT, yet like every other part of this journey, I had NO choice.  I see it on everyone who is getting near, by being ill, old or in danger. 

I now get the benefit of knowing there are some who have "THE HAT" that I can help by telling them to take care of a health issue or a dangerous situation.  Thank God!!!  As The Lady in my dreams had said 
"It was given to me as my tool to see how long a person would have among us and to use to help "
  
Which brings us to the next post in my Blog;

...........And so it continues..................

"THE LADY IN BLUE"

with love and light
Kelley

THE RUSTED TIN CAN...........

Well good morning my friends,

As I sit here preparing to begin my next post for my blog I can't help but express what a TRULY AMAZING blessed  morning it is, the heat bugs are buzzing, the sun is shining, my music is playing and I'm sitting outside on the veranda, with my mug of coffee on one side, and my two fur babies curled up on the other side, getting ready to write!!! SIGH.......truly a gifted morning!!! Thank-you my higher power, for I am so grateful!!!!

If I had a dollar for every time someone who new me as a child and young adult said that they had no clue I was going through this journey, I'd be rich!!!!.....ok people, IT WAS A SECRET!!....one I held within the depths of my soul for the biggest part of my life!  With my granny's words continually playing in my mind!  "Don't share this with anyone, until your sure it's safe"! Those words echoed in my whole body, through my whole life, knowing that to be excepted I had to be careful, so I held back, and tried to not bring attention to myself.......so no I NEVER shared this with anyone, be it friends or family except my Granny for in her loving arms I was always safe!!!!
To my other family members I was just strange!!!!!!!

And so it continues............

That winter day I walked out from my granny's house, I felt so light, floating and free just like the gentle falling snowflakes falling around me!  By opening the door with my Granny, I felt for the first time in my young life that I was not alone!
I felt with Granny everything would be alright..................

Several days later I had an experience that would show me that my gift could help others!!!!!!Going to bed was still never easy but armed with my Granny's strength I knew I could be strong.  
That night they came, and I remember wanting so bad to revert to my old way of pulling the blankets over my head.  To you all, if the truth be told, I did pull those blankets over me but this time I peaked, and there right next to my bed was a man with a Big smile on his face......., his mouth moving and that crazy buzzing sound was all I heard so I swallowed and said "please talk slower because I can understand"!  And miracle of miracles I heard him clearly...............and I recognized him.  He was a neighbour who had always been disabled, having epileptic seizures but would do odd jobs around the community, (mowing lawns and cleaning yards)!  I will not use his name due to respect of family!  
But I finally could hear clearly, and what he said was,  " YOU HAVE TO GO TO MY  SISTER AND TELL HER TO GO IN THE BASEMENT OF THE HOUSE, LOOK NEXT TO THE SIXTH BEAM"!  Well let me tell you that my reaction to his request was instant, I said I couldn't because I was afraid! He told me to ask my GRANNY!  
Next day their I went, I told Granny the whole story and she said nothing for the longest time!  Then she took my hand and said that this was not about me and I had to go to his sister house and tell her or he would not leave me alone!  
To express how I felt in words can't come close to explaining the fear and need to run from this!! I could actually Taste it!!!!
But GRANNY asked GOD to give me strength and sent me off! 
The walk their was not even 10 minutes but it felt like forever, imagine a 8 or 9 year old walking with this on her shoulders, sigh......but I did it.  Her front door finally was in front of me and I took a deep breath and knocked.  I could hear her foot steps coming to the door and all I could think of was RUN!!! 
The door opened and there she stood, smiling and telling me to come in but I said "NO", I then blurted out that I had seen her brother last night and that he wanted me to tell her to go in the basement and look for the sixth beam and she would find something very important.......well she of course looked shocked and didn't seem to take me serious! So I took her hand and pulled her outdoors and we walked to the basement doors! She opened them and proceeded to walk down into the darkness.  Within a few seconds I heard the sound of her pulling the string to put the light on! 
Then I heard her counting the beams and the catch in her breath! Next thing she was walking up the stone steps with something in her hand!

It was an OLD RUSTED TIN CAN......

Standing next to me, she pulled on the cover and with some effort it opened...everything spilled out,
And to both our surprise it was money, more money then I ever saw!  Well she just sat there and cried!!!! I thought I had hurt her in some way, but she said no and gave me a hug I will never forget!! 
Standing behind her was her brother, smiling from ear to ear! HE WORDED From his mouth THANK-YOU!and was gone like a puff of wind!!!

After helping pick up all the money we went into the kitchen and she counted it and when she was done she said that it was a miracle,  the big bank people were going to take her house and now she could keep it!!! As a child I didn't quite understand what that meant but I knew it was bad and finding this money made it good! 
She wanted to call my parents to tell them, I panicked and begged her to say nothing, she agreed and pressed $10.00 in my hand!i told her no it was not mine and gave it back!

Walking back home I, in my little girl mind finally knew that I had done good..  These "SEE THROUGH PEOPLE" may not be such a bad thing!

Looking back as an adult I realize that this was the moment I found some peace in being me!!! 

Her brother never came to my bed again, I guess I had finished his unfinished business!  But believe me there would be many more SEE THROUGH PEOPLE to come for help!!!

But that's another story!!!!!

Blessings to all
Love 
Kelley

"IT WAS MEANT TO BE"

HELLO MY  FRIENDS,
As I sit here, I can't help but think of how all this may sound to someone who would not have experienced this in there life!  
To believe or NOT to believe is the question, yet I was given NO choice, this was my life and I can't explain why me, other then being told by my GRANNY that on this earth there are those individuals that have a unique LIGHT switch that was put on at birth or after a traumatic experience and others that have no clue that it even exist in them, never to be switched on because you can't just decide to have this..........and in her words " IT WAS MEANT TO BE"!

AND NOW IT CONTINUES.......

I cried that day in my Granny's kitchen, in her safe arms she allowed me to let it all out without judgements or interruptions, it flowed,  the helplessness, the fear, the feeling of sadness, and the soul pain of feeling like I never belonged it just poured out from my little girl body like a unplugged River in the safe keeping of my guardian angel, my granny but it was to be the beginning of exceptence of my lot in life!  
When the tears stops, my granny smiled her smile and with a twinkle in her eyes she said now let's talk, and talk we sure did!  She told me that what we spoke of would NEVER BE TOLD TO OUR FAMILY, and that was alright! It would be our secret and she then began to explain how important it was to never talk of this in school or to the outside people because the world was not ready yet......but in time it would be excepted so I had to be patient!  
I told her that the SEE THROUGH PEOPLE CAME AT NIGHT an stood around my bed, their mouths moving but all I heard was that awfull high pitch buzz!  She smiled and said I had to tell THEM to slow down and tell me what they wanted! Well let me tell you I will never forget the fear that came upon me, omg that meant I had to get out from under the blankets and I had to talk to THEM.......In my granny's way she said "Yes you have to because they will never stop until you fined out what they want"!  Holy Hannah, all I could think of was NO I CAN'T!  She said imagine if you were in a room with people and only one person could see you but they couldn't hear your words, wouldn't You be sad?  She hugged me and said that every night I should ask GOD TO SURROUND ME WITH LIGHT AND LOVE!  That this would protect me from all EVIL!  She then washed my face gave me a cookie and milk, like nothing had happened! When I was done she put my snow suit on, hugged me and told me"your not alone" and with that she patted my head and sent me home!  There would be many talks in the days and years to come, some easy some hard but all full of wisdom and love!!!!!

But that's to come.......
Blessings to all
Kelley

It continues............

Last night As I wrote my first post on my very first Blog, I was not sure if I was ready for this, to fully disclose my journey, my life for the world to read!  Because for a very long time this was my secret.  A secret that I only shared within the boundaries of my control!  Always careful to not stick out or bring attention to myself... To be honest it was a lot more scary to open this door, then dealing with people that have passed  or spirits needing direction, but after today and the amazing love of the people who took the time to read it, I truly know from the bottom of my heart that this is part of my duty and yes my destiny!!! For what is a life if not shared honestly in its entirety!  So I thank-you all for the warm and heartfelt messages of encouragement.....bless you!!

And so it continues.............

As a child of 7 years old, I realized very quickly that this was NOT the norm!  These "See true figures"continued to make an L shape around my bed!!!  Sometimes there was 3 but most time it was 6 or 7 of THEM! 
I was in my twin bed knowing they would come and I felt helpless! So I found a way to feel some kind of security!  I would get in bed which was next to the wall with my sisters bed along side mine and I would wait a few minutes and then I would yell for my dad, he would come and I would say that my legs hurt.  You see if he was in the room they would not come and I would beg my dad to rub my legs and pray I would fall asleep before he was done.  And there were times I actually did fall asleep but most time I didn't and he would tuck me in and leave!  

I usually FELT THEM before I saw THEM so I would wait till my sister was asleep and carry her to my bed, putting her on the outside with me tucked safe against the wall!!!  Hoping and praying that they would take her instead of me!!! Obviously THEY never did, I know....not very sisterly on my part but you have to understand she NEVER saw them or felt anything.......it was just me!  I heard that buzzing sound and saw them...  So I did what I had to do to survive...
this continued for several years......
And only Until our later years as adults did she realize she never walked in her sleep as a child, because that's what I always told her!! She slept like a rock and I would pull her out of her bed laying her next to me and she had no clue..... 

The day that things finally made sense was on a cold winters day.  I remember it so well because I was outside alone, the snow was glistening in the late afternoon sun, my breath was making foggy mist in front of me and my Granny Tracy saw me and called me in!  You see God, or the Universe what ever you want to call it knew that I would need not only loving grandparents but they were my Godparents as well! 
There house was next door to ours so going to my grannies was a daily occurrence but this time was different, some how she knew and I felt it!  
Sitting at the kitchen table, my granny Took my hand and said words that will forever hold me in a warm safe blanket of love!  She said "I know, I know you see them but so do I"!  I lost it and cried from the depth of my soul and she held me for what seemed like hours whispering "it's ok now, your not alone anymore"! At that moment everything in me changed! 
Never let anyone tell you that there isn't strength in numbers.... 
I was not alone!!! I was not alone!!! I was not alone!!! Oh how I treasured those words.....
My life changed that day, my secret was finally out and my granny understood....and because of her and her gentle loving faith filled soul my journey took a turn, one that would give me the tools I needed to live with this...
My granny was a gift, one I to this day will treasure forever....... 
She kept my secret but our time together was never to be the same because under her wing I was able to finally see how I could help Them.....
But that's another part of my story to which I will continue tomorrow........

Blessings to you all
Kelley

My journey in being a Redneck Psychic

Well here I am, about to embark on a new journey! Blogging, who would of thought it!
Me, a middle age, redneck, fairly intelligent, plump,  and somewhat weird but sensible woman, who lives a life most would never imagine or even understand!  My life bares a resemblance to one of those second rate B movies!!!!  Yet it is real, an full and at this point a life I wouldn't trade for the world!
I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend, a Psychic, a Spiritual Reader, a clairvoyant, a Medium, a Energy reader, a Spiritual councillor, a Spiritual Artist, an Empath,  and a Nature loving Redneck hippie!
I Am all these labels and much more!  I am flesh and blood, I am a woman who finally embraces herself as someone who has walked a long journey with no manual to guide her! But most of all I am a child of God!

AND SO IT BEGINS!!!!!

 I remember the exact time I realized I was NOT like everyone, a little girl at the young age of 7, I had my first experience of seeing what I called "see through people"!  Their mouths were moving but all I could hear was a high pitch buzzing sound!  Scared would not even come close to expressing my emotions!  I screamed and hid under my blankets! Innocently asking God for help.......to afraid to look or make a sound!  My sister yelling for our father and hearing him coming into our room!  Feeling his hand on top of my head asking "what's wrong"!   Being told I was having a nightmare, and to go to sleep!!! But sleep did not come, and to this day I finally do sleep well because I am no longer afraid!!!!!